Piano Players
There's 3 types of players, note readers look at music and play it great and consistent from the first time on but often memorize poorly.
Improvisers don't read notes well, their music often single notes with cords. They improvise a number of ways but never play the same twice.
The last, brute force. They struggle through 1000 times until it becomes part of them. Learn which you are, you may be one type, a mix, etc.
Where do you put yourself?